Hasty Decision

attention to Mr Darryl Lim,
Ms Xuan is officially jobless now. sighh. HOW!?

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no job means no money means no shopping means noo everythingg.
it's totally NOT cool. fuck.

still considering to go back to my retail job, hopefully.
but hakim told me that i will be dead tired to work if my attachment starts.
arggh. fucked up life, fucked up pple!

andd i got a baby coming in this month.
i'm excitedd about it. but worried too.
what if i cant be a responsible mummy?
what if i have no time for him?
what if i don't clean him up?
what if i don't feed him?
what if i ...................................

TOOO MANY 'WHAT IF(S)'
it would be another high expenses baby.
gonna find a bloody job sooon.
any introo? LOL.

not gonna let the 'dad' do all the work and the expenses.
start saving xuan, i wish i could.
for today, at least i did sand and spray the house. ( thou i dint do much )
all the thinkings are killing my brain cells! sigh.

all my 'wants' are getting further away from me. )):
BYE!